Hi Dearnie, I so sorry for your loss. We had to have our 19 year old Boston Terrier put down 2 years ago after he had a stroke. It was so very hard to do but it had to be done. Athough he had a very long life it was still hard to let him go. We have to do what's best for our babies in the end. We owe it to them. We have a 14 month old Boston now and we love him very much. I hope time heals your pain and your memories are happy ones.