I hear you parus. Actually, here I am on the internet trying to take my mind off the reality, which is the euthanasia appointment I have scheduled for tomorrow. I bounce between clear headed and totally lost so I'm typing this in one of the better moments of this evening. My situation is similar to yours in that Soro is still happy, playful, hungry, great blood panel... I could post a video from TODAY of him doing complex (but low impact) tricks, eager to train, happily chewing on a bone in the yard... But he's been on palliative care for the last couple months and the maximum dosage of some serious meds, the cancer isn't going away, and he's not getting any younger to boot. The pain in his leg is there noticeable ways yet not significantly impacting his attitude. COULD he keep going and still enjoy the simple things for another week, and maybe another? I think so. Do I want to wait until he is truly suffering, not eating, and not able to be helped by medication? No. I feel so much sadness it is indescribable, but zero guilt. And my partner and I have been saying for the last month or so, any time now or in the last few weeks would not have been the 'wrong' time. Yet there is no one 'right' time either. It is hard to look at him and think that I am putting down a happy dog that still has more time left. The big thing for me is, I want to remember my dog for the goofy, affectionate, bright-eyed boy that he is. And I feel like I owe him a peaceful exit without suffering. And lastly, I tell myself that dogs don't know any better or worse, but they do not want to be in pain. Still, none of this is easy. None of it is supposed to be.
So I'm not telling you what to do. But I empathize with you being in between a hard situation and a hard decision. No matter what, I hope you at least find peace of mind. You shouldn't feel guilty when you have a 17(!!) year old dog who is, was, and will always be clearly loved. My best thoughts and sincerest sympathies to you and Queenie.
So I'm not telling you what to do. But I empathize with you being in between a hard situation and a hard decision. No matter what, I hope you at least find peace of mind. You shouldn't feel guilty when you have a 17(!!) year old dog who is, was, and will always be clearly loved. My best thoughts and sincerest sympathies to you and Queenie.