Loki
DogForums.com is the premier dog Forum on the internet. Registered Users do not see the above ads.
+ Reply to Thread
Results 1 to 7 of 7

Thread: Loki

  1. #1
    Senior Member Hiraeth's Avatar
    Join Date
    Aug 2015
    Location
    Ann Arbor, MI
    Posts
    2,740

    Loki

    I never made a memorial thread for Loki, as I joined the forum right after his passing and couldn't even look at photos of him. So here we are, a year after our last day together, so I'd like to share a bit about my soulmate dog.

    I rescued Loki on July 22nd, 2009. He was my 22nd birthday present to myself. And boy was he a nightmare right from the start. He never stopped moving. Most of my photos of him were black blurs.



    He was surrendered because a kid was chasing him and hitting him with a stick, and he retaliated by biting the kid. I knew he was probably going to have some behavioral issues, but oh boy, I had no idea. He was child aggressive, increasingly dog aggressive and resource aggressive. He had insane amounts of energy and whined when he was bored, which was whenever someone wasn't actively throwing a frisbee for him.

    He was also a destructive chewer. He was a total jerk. I pretty much almost hated him and wanted to take him back. I cried several times a week because he was such a struggle.

    Things got easier as time went on, we all adjusted and there were no longer weekly tears. But then something really magical happened. Around 2 and a half years old, Loki transformed (or my feelings for him transformed) and he turned into the best dog on earth. I had serious back problems and he could sense when I was in pain and he would lay with me all day long and walk slowly next to me while I used him for support to get around. I trained him to do some easy things like pick things up that I had dropped on the floor, help me get my shoes, etc. He mellowed, he and Atlas stopped getting into regular scuffles. He turned into a wacky, awkward, smart, wonderful dog. And we spent three great years together.





    In March of 2015, Loki developed a slight limp and minor swelling in his foreleg. I took him to the vet expecting that he had potentially pulled something, or maybe even had a slight fracture from playing too hard. The radiographs came back with something unexpected - bone cancer. I was devastated.

    It turned out that the tumor presented on the ulna, which is a rather rare spot for bone cancer to occur (it usually appears in the weight-bearing bones of the forelegs). This gave me the option of opting for a rarely performed surgical procedure called an ulnar ostectomy, which would remove the middle portion of his ulna that was effected by the cancer, while sparing his leg and reducing his pain. We were clear that this was not a cure, and that this procedure was simply buying us maybe a year.

    The surgery was complicated, but Loki came through okay. He spent four weeks in a large splint and bandage, during which time we had to do multiple bandage changes due to pressure sores and him chewing at it. Eventually the bandage came off and he was left with this gnarly scar.



    He was a champ through all of this. Went to chemo and radiation with a wagging tail, maintained his appetite and took everything in stride. He returned to mostly normal exercise, including playing light games of frisbee.

    And then one day I noticed that the swelling had returned in his foreleg. I took him back to the vet, they took a needle aspirate of the leg, and found that the cancer had infiltrated the tissue in the area. At that point my options were amputation or euthanasia, and I could not bring myself to put him through another major procedure. So we spent one final weekend together.




    And I took the last photo I'd ever take of him.



    A year ago today I said goodbye to my soulmate dog and my best buddy. I am so glad I didn't give in to my initial urge to take him back to the shelter and that we made it through his adolescence and into the golden years of his adulthood. Every time I'm having difficulty with one of my dogs, I think about what I learned from Loki - that the unexpected can always happen, to take each day, each frustration, each moment of happiness, and try to enjoy them all. I wish now that I had relished Loki's puppyhood instead of looking forward to the moment it would be over with, so I do my best to learn from that mistake and to enjoy my current puppies even when they're at their most obnoxious.

    I'm not a religious person, but I hope that if there's a place after this one, I will see him again.


  2. Remove Advertisements
    DogForums.com
    Advertisements
     

  3. #2
    Senior Member PatriciafromCO's Avatar
    Join Date
    Oct 2012
    Posts
    7,267

    Re: Loki

    Wonderful tribute for Loki !!!!! Beautiful Amazing boy.. Yes there is a place were we will all meet when our work here is done..... HUGS....

  4. #3
    Senior Member sydneynicole's Avatar
    Join Date
    Apr 2015
    Location
    Connecticut
    Posts
    1,042

    Re: Loki

    This brought me to tears as I recently lost a dog that touched my heart in so many ways. What a beautiful life you two had together. He was very lucky to fall into your hands. Run free, Loki.
    http://www.dogforums.com/signaturepics/sigpic216410_1.gif
    “Outside of a dog, a book is man's best friend. Inside of a dog it's too dark to read.”
    ― Groucho Marx, The Essential Groucho: Writings For By And About Groucho Marx

  5. Remove Advertisements
    DogForums.com
    Advertisements
     

  6. #4
    Senior Member BellaPup's Avatar
    Join Date
    Jul 2007
    Location
    New Hampshire
    Posts
    3,313

    Re: Loki

    That was beautiful...thank you for sharing! Hugs for you and the spirit of Loki!

    (I need a tissue before someone comes into my cubicle)





    --------------------------------------------------------------------------------

  7. #5
    Senior Member CptJack's Avatar
    Join Date
    Jun 2012
    Posts
    16,360

    Re: Loki

    This is a beautiful tribute to a wonderful dog -

    and I absolutely know/see why Thud reminds you of him.

    Dogs are not our whole life, but they make our lives whole. Roger Caras

  8. #6
    Senior Member
    Join Date
    Mar 2015
    Location
    Up in the NorCal Sierras
    Posts
    1,037

    Re: Loki

    This teared me up. Hugs to you!

  9. #7
    Junior Member
    Join Date
    Aug 2016
    Posts
    7

    Re: Loki

    RIP Loki. I'm glad your patience and persistence paid off. I'm sure he had a great life.

  10. Remove Advertisements
    DogForums.com
    Advertisements
     

+ Reply to Thread

Quick Reply Quick Reply

  • Decrease Size
    Increase Size
  • Remove Text Formatting
  • Insert LinkInsert ImageInsert Video
  • Wrap [QUOTE] tags around selected text


Posting Permissions

  • You may not post new threads
  • You may not post replies
  • You may not post attachments
  • You may not edit your posts
SEO by vBSEO 3.5.2 ©2010, Crawlability, Inc.