I need some support.
My dog is a 12 year old female, spayed, scottish terrier. She is crated in a large 5'x3.5' crate when unsupervised and is an inside dog only. She cannot have chew toys because she tries to eat them, so she is crated with blankets only.
Over the past three years, I've spent more than $5000 on x-rays, ultrasounds, blood tests, observations, special diets, medications, and vet specialists, only to be told that my dog has Chronic Pancreatitis, with absoluetely no known cause or trigger. We've ruled out every other GI issue and medical problem we can think of. It is, without a doubt, Pancreatitis.
Occassionally, she just goes into an episode of Pancreatitis, requiring hospitalization with IV fluids no food or water for about 3-5 days and medications. I can't figure out why she suddenly gets sick. She can be fine in the am, and afternoon, and when I get home she's vomitted all over everything and refuses to get up and it will be days before she can take anything orally. To me, she has a boring life, but her quality of life is good when she is not in the moment of a Pancreatitis episode. The episodes usually occur months apart from each other
Presently, she can eat only WD food, dry/canned and is losing body mass due to the reduced fat in the food. She gets 2.5 cups per day and looks sickly but the vets all say she's alright.
She is now developing occassional bladder infections, so she's urinating everywhere and taking meds. Kidney and bladder function are fine. I come home everyday to take her out, and she's taken out several times before we leave for work and when we return home.
. The vet has suggested I put her to sleep the next time she gets sick. But she always gets better so long as leave her hospitalized until she can stomach food and water again. This is usually about 5 days and costs about $1200+
I am having difficulty rationalizing killing my dog because I don't want to pay the expensive vet bills. I make a decent living for myself and, in my opinion, that's what money is for. But, ontheotherhand, I can't afford to keep paying vet bills like this and I'm angry with the vets for charging so much. I'm not a rich person., but I save smart, and have a good amount of money in the account at all times. So, I can afford most treatments.
How do I know when enough is enough though? I want to end her life without feeling like I did it for my financial concerns rather than her quality of life?