 i just really miss my baby
sabrina was my baby for 12 years. i remember the first time i ever saw her, i knew she was the dog for me. she ran to me and rolled over, and right then i knew i was her mom.
i cleaned up her throwup and potty trained her, played with her, taught her how to swim, taught her how to sleigh ride (down small hills at slow speeds, of course). she got bladder cancer a few months ago, which caused her to urinate blood everywhere. she had to stay in the living room with towels all over the floor for months. mentally, she was all there --- eager and excited, still full of life. but her body was dying and just remember her struggling to go to the bathroom, full of pain. i remember the last time i ever saw her. she urinated blood all over cement, and all i could do was comfort her, thinking of how much pain she must have been in...
right now i just feel empty. some days i'll just stay in and look at her box of ashes thinking, these really belong in an ocean or field. but i can't let go of them. not yet.
Last edited by venus_taxi; 09-07-2009 at 09:42 PM..
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