[roisin]

Hi to all , do not know if on right forum but just need to write about my beloved dog, my dog was named charlie she was a cross rottieweiller. We had charlie for 17years . she had been quiet ill but every other day she would seem ok so i have kept putting off calling the vet in for a few weeks i dont believe in having animals put to sleep. I read that lovely poem that was sent on this forum and i think if i read it again it might help me to realise i have done the right thing for charlie has i decided to get the vet iin two days ago but i do feel guilty and a bit sick. It turned out that she had a nasty tumour in her mouth but they only got to see it after she was put to sleep she would not let u look in her mouth but i did know there was something not good in her mouth has she was finding it difficult to eat on the one side even so i didnt want her put to sleep. Everything round our home is reminding me and my husband of her . she had started moaning early in the mornings to get me up round about six oclock and i would get up and let her out but it never bothered me i new she needed to pass water . its the little things im thinking about she had been a real character has a pup but had gone a bit deaf so never heard us that much lately when we were tslking to her but i loved this dog and she. had been such a big part of our lives . what can one do to help with this greif i thought her been so old might make it a bit easier but it doesnt .