[dotd]

i write this with a heavy heart, i have pup,my yellow, 15 yrs. and oakley, choc. who was almost 11. two weeks ago the day after christmas i had to put him to sleep. he had become inactive for months, but he was all but blind and i thought that was why and his age. he was a big dog,140 when healthy.pup had major health issues, thought she was dying 6 months ago and showed most of my time on her. now i wonder what if i had reconized that he was sick earlier? i still didn't know how sick he was untill a few wks. before he died.i don't know why and don't want to that he died. i have prayed that GOD would never make me do that.he became all but moitionless on friday but i still denied that he was dying. CHRISTMAS day i knew what i had to do. i can't beleive that there are many other things that will hurt this much. the constance sobbing has been replaced with adeep sadness and i feel that some small part of my life is gone. many people think i am foolish but i'm sure others understand

[MagicToller]

I am so sorry about Pup and Oakley.. I as well of many of us on this forum can relate to your grief and understand the inexorable pain that comes from such a heart wrenching decision. I'm sure their memory will dance with life again in your love for them

[Elijah]

many people think i am foolish but i'm sure others understand

Don't worry about what others think. You're the one hurting and I know what you are experiencing as do most others here. It's a terrible feeling and you sometimes think you'll always feel this way. I lost my little Corgi the day before thanksgiving and still am not over it. It's a shock you can't explain to others that perhaps don't own pets or haven't owned on for a long time. After two weeks of sobbing over the phone with my sister about having my friend euthanized, she told me I was going to have to get a better handle on all this. I couldn't...I still hurt and didn't want to "get a better handle on it".

I've seen death a lot in animals and people and it doesn't get any easier. At 60 years old, it still doesn't come easy. Love for a pet is something difficult to describe to those who may not be so compassionate or are nonchalant about animals but, we who love them hurt no less when they die as if a family member had died....been there. Sleep with a picture of him or cuddle a teddy bear at night if that's what may make you feel a little less depressed. I did for a while and don't mind telling it. I got over my John Wayne image years ago!! Do whatever you feel may ease the pain. Cry, rant, scream but, remember this, that may be good therapy for you but, it won't change anything. However, you need to express those feelings and not harbor them as it's not healthy. Sooner or later we all have to face the cold facts that we can't bring them back and we are the ones hurting. Your pet isn't hurting now. He's romping and playing with others along golden streams and grassy meadows having a blast. We WILL...I repeat...we WILL see our loved ones again and don't let anyone tell you differently. Comfort yourself with that promise.